What I'm dealing with

I still think about you I still think about you I still think about you I still think about you I still think about you I still think about you

And it would be that way no matter which way I go.

I stay where I'm at and wonder 'what if' about the newness, the possibilities, the fun that could have been.
I go the other way and wonder 'what if' about how far we could have really gone, how deep those feelings could have continued to delve, how happy I could have been.

Nothing is forever. Sorry.
And since that is the case, technically nothing will ultimately 'work out.' One month, one year, one decade. I don't believe in forever, it's going to end sometime, therefore it won't 'work out.'
So that brings me to WHAT'S THE POINT? That's where I should choose the hole I've dug and just stay there without anyone. That's probably what I deserve but not what anybody will let me have.

Third parties call me names, those involved still think I'm a saint. w.t.f.