TMI Friday (I don't care)

Two weeks after the breakup and I'm aroused.
God dammit.
If I try to take care of it, I'll either cry because I'm alone or succeed and pass right out (when I have work to do).
If I don't take care of it, I'll be bargaining with myself to try to contact him and basically solicit him. But then I'll pay for that emotionally later.
Shit.

And last night I thought about the time you were drunk. It made me sad because I remembered the 15 minutes we were okay and happy and showing affection in public. You were still so handsome. I want our time back.

Eh. Whatever. It will still be awhile before I can talk to you without being emotional. I really hope a month is enough. But I just don't know.